I feel as tho

I can not embrace this moment
I can not break my love into more then one piece

It is whole, i am whole fighting in shallow water
shedding light more often then touching it
then accepting it for what it is

i have been here before and know it does not work,
i can not let all of this consume me, i can not let all of this
pass through me, i am valid, i am reason

i can not grasp with hands
i do not feel i have.